Author: kwetoday

If you have any of these symptoms, you might have….

Do you cry?
Do you feel sad?
Do you get angry some days?
Do you feel annoyed with others?
Do you feel shy in a room of crowded people?
If you have any of the symptoms above, then you might be NORMAL!

I just recently read an article titled “Is Anybody Normal Anymore?” And I could relate to this article not because I had any of the mental health disorders listed but because I feel the same way about the DSM.

The DSM is a diagnostic tool that is used by psychiatrists or mental health specialists to treat so called “mental health disorders.” There is a lot of criticism, which is talked about in the article itself, on this diagnostic tool. Some of the criticism is that it includes normal reactions to life events or that it includes false-positives (mean potentially diagnosing someone as sick who may in fact be healthy). In fact, the DSM has been altered since its initial creation that homosexuality has been removed (which is GOOD!) and currently, the LGBT2Q community has been advocating for gender identity reform. 

When I was 15 years old, I was diagnosed with depression. I was forced to go on Zoloft which was not supposed to be administered to anyone under the age of 18. If I didn’t take it, the hospital team said that they would call CAS (Children’s Aid Society) on me and I would be taken away from my family. I don’t know what happened but not long after taking it, I was in a car accident. I don’t know what happened but immediately after the accident I was not on Zoloft anymore.

Then when I was 18, I was beginning to take a group of drugs that were frequently called “PAM family drugs.” For example, lorazepam, and any other drug that ended in PAM. These were used for my anxiety which sort of did help. The only downside? They were highly addictive. I don’t know if I ever got addicted to them but I take them only sporadically now. At this same time, I wasn’t diagnosed with depression anymore.

Again when I was 22, I saw another psychiatrist (one of about 8 in my entire life). He diagnosed me with borderline personality disorder. Before that, I was diagnosed with bipolar disorder. And before that, I was diagnosed with post-traumatic stress disorder. And before that, anxiety disorder. I was on ativan (lorazepam), valporic acid, seroquel, various sleeping pills.

I just never felt right being on the medication I was on. Seroquel made me feel like I just took a tab of ecstasy. Valporic acid made me feel like a zombie, and wasn’t even supposed to be used for the diagnosis I had! It is a very powerful drug for epileptics. Ativan made me feel drowsy for more than 24 hours.

So what did I stop/start doing? I stop taking all these drugs, and I started eating healthy and going to the gym. I kept myself busy. If I wasn’t busy, I would start thinking about bad things again-things that made me depressed or stressed out which would later cause my anxiety. I cut back on drinking too (if you think you have mental health issues or a mental health disorder, limiting your alcohol intake helps tremendously–but I do know that for some it is more of a self-medication… I did that once too). Also, I started journaling and reflecting on my own thoughts, actions, or behaviours.  I just overall feel better about myself. I do have bad days but I know that those bad days will past. It’s not the end of the world. The plus side? I don’t really take drugs anymore (of any kind). I also lost 20 lbs. So, people who I haven’t seen in a long time tell me how great I look which makes me feel great! There have been days where I thought about suicide here and there but I know that it is not worth it. I have worked too hard to get where I am, and have too much to leave behind. I know that people will miss me and that I won’t be able to make memories with them.

Do I believe that mental health disorders don’t exist or that the DSM isn’t helpful? No. I do believe that some people need additional help like with medications. The DSM provides a guideline for some mental health professionals but it should not be relied on in its entirety. My own personal examples above are a perfect example of how I was constantly being tossed around from psychiatrist to psychiatrist to only receive a new diagnosis and a new drug that wasn’t even made for the use it is originally prescribed for.

Just some things that are considered normal are now being treated as abnormal. We shouldn’t be just complicit in our demise as loving, caring, full of emotion human beings. It is okay to cry. It is okay to get angry. It is okay to feel sad. It is okay to feel overwhelmed in a crowded room. And it is most certainly okay to be annoyed with people… because some people can just straight up be annoying!

When did I start caring…

Today is May Day and to tell you the truth I don’t really know much about it. I couldn’t really find a site that explained it plainly. It is also International Workers’ Day today as well. I didn’t know that until today either.

There is a lot of what I don’t know. What’s troubling to me is that I thought I genuinely cared about people and wanted to work towards equality for everyone. Unfortunately, in that same breathe, I was committing the very thing that I now despise: trying to save people and trying to protect others.

It didn’t happen over night that I grew to despise this. It probably started in my last relationship (which has been over since 2009 so I harbor no hard feelings when I write this). However, I will premise with this: he WAS and IS a great guy. Now, the then-relationship just wasn’t a good fit….for me. I had these feelings that he only wanted to be around when *bad* things happen in order to *save me* or *protect me*. Yet, I didn’t want to be saved. I didn’t want to be protected. Especially when only bad things happened to me. I wanted support and love to be there when GOOD things happened to me too! People need support and love when they feel that there is good in their life, because what good is life when you can’t share the moments of happiness with another person? Exactly. It would be very boring.

I was going over a few old emails not too long ago and I noticed one that I had written about and it was the first time I had shared with someone about my sex work experience. I write in detail on another blog post HERE about those experiences in a different light. When I was reading over this initial email, I kind of felt disgusted with myself. I was the person I very much despise: trying to save and trying to protect. But protect from what and protect from who? Exactly. There was so much I didn’t know about the world of sex work.

Up until January 2012, I was always told that the reason all the bad things happened in my life was because of sex work. Even all the things that happened in my life BEFORE sex work was why I got into sex work. As mentioned before, up until January 2012, I didn’t know that there was this whole other side of world when it comes to sex work. I met a wonderful group of individuals at Maggies Toronto. I felt kind of out of place too but for reasons that others might not suspect. I felt out of place because I was at one point the individuals/institutions/organizations and the attitudes those individuals/institutions/organizations had, wherein we were trying to  address them as a group. By the end of the 2-day experience, I felt liberated. For my entire life, up until that point, I was the very person I hate and I was constantly being told that sex work was the problem. Sex work wasn’t and isn’t the problem.

The problem is the attitudes that other people, institutions, organizations have towards sex workers.

Today, I don’t see how those two can be connected. I never felt like they were connected or related. Every time I met with a counsellor to discuss my feelings or what was going on in my life, I just never felt like there was connection with them. They would always blame sex work, and they would always say “you are the victim.” And maybe that is true in some sense but the reasons for getting raped is not because of sex work. And the reason for being in an abusive relationship is not because of sex work. Just to name a couple things that past counselors have blamed on sex work. I also love my current counsellor that I hate today because she gets this. She understands! I write about her HERE. I knew she got it the very moment when I told her that the reason I was worried about getting back into sex work after I lost my job was not because of sex work itself, but rather the people that I might lose–some of the people I love in my life. Again.

So when did I start caring so much that I had to become the person I hate? Because I thought I was doing the right thing. I was wrong. If you are going to help people, in no matter what type of capacity, you are going to have to let those individuals get the help they want and on their own terms.

Anyways, good news: I got a job offer and have really good marks to end this year off right! So I am happy with my outcome at the end of the year, even after losing my job. I am most certainly happy with all the wonderful, strong, confident, beautiful people that I have met this past semester. Especially the ones I met who taught me to remember to stop caring about what others think (something my momma always told me and my sisters to do!)

Indigenous Student Experience

Today I posted on my tumblr account earlier that I was going to write a blog post about another lovely year-end university experience.

It was kind of similar to last year except … worse.

I had an interview last week for a position with Ethnocultural Support Services aka ESS (a position I had no idea was there until someone told me “hey you should apply to that!”) So, I applied to it. No biggie. Part of the application process was to tell them why you are best fit for the position, why you want to fill the position and what type of improvements would you make to the position.

The position was for First Nations Liaison.

Last year, I wrote about my experience in applying to a non-First Nations student position, and how I felt like I was being typed after the person recommended I apply to a First Nations specific position within the University Students Council. You can read that post HERE.

Here is the specific email response last year:

Sorry it took a few days for me to get back to you. Should you ever have any questions at all about how to get involved with Campus Issues, or about applications next year, I am more than happy to meet with you on any occasion. 



 Also, I would reccomend you look at the executive application for Director of First Nations Students. I know you are very passionate in this area and I think it would be a great fit for you. The application can be found on the USC website

I didn’t apply to the position because I wasn’t interested in applying to it. Guess I should have applied!

Now with the most recent experience, it was worse off because not only did I NOT get the position, they also asked in that same email, if I could implement my idea in the coming school year OUTSIDE the realm of the position.

That email went something like this:

First of all thank you so much for your interest in the position for First Nations Liaison. There is a lot of work needed in that area, and it has been neglected for too long. This year we had a high level of interest for ESS executive positions as compared to last year. ESS is growing and hopefully will be even bigger next year. Also I want to thank you for coming in to do an interview, we had some great dialogue,

With that being sad, I cannot offer you a position on ESS this year. Your interview was amazing and so was your application. I would love to work with you on getting a couple of the workshops that you offer available to all students. I hope this does not discourage you from your interest in helping the indigenous community. I am always looking for individuals who are willing to help, and who are passionate.


I hope you have a great summer, and can’t wait to see you in the new school year.

While in this most recent interview, there were several red flags that I was unsure how to interpret. The first one was that one of the interviewers was late and then proceeded to ask me questions that I already answered (had she been there on time, I would not have to repeat myself). This is interesting because it left me feeling with the hunch that whoever is filling the position was already picked. Another contributing factor those feelings was that this interview was almost scheduled on the fly… meaning I got an email and there was a sense of urgency to get it done and out of the way. It all sounded fishy to me. After talking it over with my mom about these feelings, she blatantly stated, “I wonder if these interviews are just there to appear to be democratic but in reality don’t really serve a purpose because they already picked someone.” It could very well be considering the interviewer had a sense of urgency in getting these interviews done with and that the other interviewer was late.

What is the problem with that you ask? Well, their complete disregard for professionalism.

While in the interview, I also grew weary of my involvement with this particular group. The one interviewer (who was late) asked what my thoughts were on last year’s USC decision to remove the First Nations commissioner position. All I could think of was, WTF! This question sounds more political than trying to find out what my relevant skills/qualifications in filling the position would be. I answered it and I answered it truthfully. To sum it up, there was a HUGE lack of consultation with respect to this decision, and anyone on campus would agree with me whether they wanted to keep it or not. I could also tell that there was huge lack of consultation on these two new positions that they put in. One position works with in a policy/external capacity and another works with ESS. Both positions make reference to and only to First Nations students; thereby excluding Metis and Innu students. Exactly.

Both of these positions are supposedly for better representation for Indigenous students?! Clearly whoever made those positions didn’t have their thinking cap on.

Being my nice self, I gave these guys the benefit of the doubt. However, after being denied the position (which I am ABSOLUTELY PERFECTLY 100% fine with) but then in the same email being asked if my proposal can be implemented in the coming school year outside the realm of the position, I thought FUCK YOU! 


Yes. There I said it. That is what I originally wanted to write but I didn’t.

This is what I replied with:

Thanks for the email and for allowing me the opportunity to sit down with and **********. 


I am sure the person that you have chosen is very well capable and just as enthusiastic in being a part of ESS. With that being said, I am sure that they are capable enough to have their own proposal(s)/ideas implemented, and I don’t wish to work with you to offer my workshops to other students. I have other means and avenues to implement these workshops. Alas, your decision will not affect my involvement with the Indigenous community.


Some of you might think that this post is unprofessional and that it is probably best I don’t get the position. Maybe not. Yet,  if there is one thing that I can remember being told it is this…

If you are going to want to see change and if you are going to want to get things done, you are just going to have to do it…with or without the everyone else! 

So, I am going to continue to get things done and I will work hard to see change because at the end of next month, I will be implementing my proposal (because I already received the funding to get it implemented and also will be working directly with Indigenous services)!

So, the interviewer was right in the email denying my qualification for the position: THIS won’t discourage my interest in helping the Indigenous community…

IT’S GOING TO FUEL IT!

So what does this mean for other Indigenous students? Don’t ever ever ever and I mean EVER get discouraged! If someone tells you that you didn’t get a position or that you are unable to fill a certain role, don’t let that stop you in making the change that you want to see happen! Change doesn’t happen when you just give up because someone tells you “Sorry, but you didn’t make the cut.” As an Indigenous student to other Indigenous students, I will close with this…

Our experiences, whether they are collective, shared, or individual experiences, skills and knowledge, whether experiential or professional, are EXTREMELY INVALUABLE! Some people get paid BIG BUCKS to distribute/implement/consult on the information/knowledge/experience that some of you have! If you want to be valued as a student who has unique experiences a part from the rest–acknowledged this and don’t ever settle for less than what you BELIEVE you are worth!

In addition to the above, there are usually other groups on either my campus or your campus that are involved with Indigenous issues directly OR indirectly. For instance, on my campus, we have the First Nations Student Association which does AWESOME work and has EVEN AWESOME-R events on campus. There is also v-day which deals with violence against women (which is a huge issue for Indigenous women) and there are also political groups (where 2 of the parties in Canada have 2 Aboriginal People’s Commissions–like the Liberal Party of Canada). There are MANY MANY MANY ways to get involved. Just don’t let one or even two emails rain on your parade ❤

Why I hate Cosmo

Okay, so I hate Cosmo but it hasn’t always been that way. I used to read it almost every month (this was when I was like 16 until 20). Then I started noticing that, well, Cosmo is just a big junky magazine that prints practically the same articles almost every month. Not just every other month. Every. Single. Freakin. Month.

  1. How to have your hair just right for the perfect date
  2. How to have your clothing just right for the perfect date 
  3. How to wear the perfect scent for the perfect date
  4. How to get the perfect date
  5. How to please your perfect date
  6. How to keep pleasing your perfect date
  7. How to know if your perfect date is the one (even if he doesn’t think you are the one)
  8. How to be great at everything you do — but you have to make sure you follow the above steps otherwise you are not great

But the repetitious articles are not the main reason why I hate Cosmo.

I noticed something in the last issue I bought (yes I bought Cosmo–but only for who was on the cover: Khloe Kardashian! Yes, I love Khloe. No shame). I remember when this magazine used to have a section that was dedicated to men (it appears they have taken it out either of this issue or all issues … I am not really sure). I also remember when I did a research report on this magazine and analyzed current issues in comparison with another issue from the 80s (I found the 80s issue in a doctor’s office). The 80s issue was very different from the current issues and that was: they never told women how to act or behave in accordance to men’s needs, wants, or desires.

In this issue, Cosmo had a section titled “Need to Know: Cosmo Fights Campus Rape.” In this section it talked about what they accomplished, why girls should join, and why “his party habits put you at risk”.

I kind of shook my head at the last bit because it read, “If he’s drunk, he’s more likely to commit rape.”

In 1993, an extreme drunkenness defence was actually accepted by the Supreme Court in Canada in R. v. Daviault. However, in 1995, Bill C-72 amended the Criminal Code to disallow the extreme drunkenness defence for a number of violent offences, including sexual assault. This defence was disallowed because of the increase in “extreme drunkenness” defence after this ruling.

Cosmo then went on to write “…so he may not back off when a woman says no and is more prone to cross the line….It’s just something to keep in mind as you hit the rounds of prefinals parties.” (p. 202, May 2012).

This is counterintuitive to their whole “Cosmo Fights Campus Rape” campaign. It was started out in support of the “Safe Campus, Strong Voices” campaign which “aims to empower victims, improve campus sexual assault prevention programs, and encourage bystander intervention.” (Cosmo Mag).

I am sure that they meant no harm in writing their other articles on how women can make themselves appear better or look better or even feel better so that they can meet the needs, desires, and wants of every man out there. Yet, writing that a man is more likely to rape you if he is drunk removes the fact that the perpetrator had been a part in any wrong doing. He didn’t force himself upon you because he made the decision to rape you. What they write instead is: he did it because he was drunk, and well you said, “No thank you.”

So much for empowering the victims.

Something amazing is going to be happening!!!!

Well today I just finished writing the most brutal exam ever! Social psychology. Professor was great though! If I ever get a chance to have him for a lecture course again, I will most definitely try.

Any whooooo… I have some exciting news! I have an interview tomorrow for First Nations Liaison with the Ethnocultural Support Services. I am kind of nervous (as usual) but will see how it goes tomorrow!

You can check out more on Ethnocultural Support Services HERE.

In other news, I am also developing and coordinating a 2 day empowerment workshop for young Indigenous women! How amazing is that!

I applied to Girls Action Foundation Community Action a while back. I actually hesitated about applying to this on multiple occasions but decided “what they heck have I got to lose?” Nothing! So, within a week (I think or might have been longer…been a while), I got an email saying that my community action has been chosen. I am really excited for this because I love to give back to my community, and the London and Western community has been good to me! Can’t give any enough thanks to both Girls Action Foundation and Native Youth Sexual Health Network! Two rockin’ organizations!

My community action will focus on empowering young Indigenous women (as mentioned before) but also focus on reducing stigma that we as Indigenous women face and also building capacity around opportunities for public education.

If you want to know more about this community action or if you are in London ON this summer and interested in becoming involved or attending, please do email me nls@kwetoday.com. I will be making posters and stuff after my final exam on May 2!

Be ready, this is going to be amazing 😀


Note: community action/work-shop will be geared toward Indigenous women ages 17-25.

Experiences of a Sex Worker

This blog post is in response to another blog post I read today, titled Sex Workers – An Invitation to Tell Your Stories.

I decided to tell of my experiences via my blog. I know some people will say “OMG! Why did you do that!” or that I might lose some friends (again) for outing myself. I might also gain some friends. Some people may not come back to read this blog ever because of the supposed “immoralities” that I contribute to in society. I may even never find a job outside of sex work again, and you know what, that’s okay…it’s not the end of the world.


A bit of background: 

As I am writing this, I should be studying for an exam instead (social psychology–focusing on moral development). Fuck morality. Apparently, most adults don’t make it past stage 3 of Kohlberg’s stages of of moral development anyway. Soooo, we are potentially all fucked. Sex or no sex.

Okay, enough of my “morality and moral development” rant.

Currently, I am studying (at the honors level) criminology. I love it! I learn about what people think about deviant behaviours, or what is “morally” right and wrong. I learn about what professionals think of my experiences as a sex worker, and as an Indigenous female. Much of what I learn is one-sided or just straight up wrong.


Why did you get into the sex industry? 

I made the conscious decision to become an escort when I was 18 years old. This was right after I had been looking in the classified section of the local newspaper for a second part-time job. I saw an ad that read “Make thousands and work your own hours” or something like that. At the same time I was reading this paper, I was also in my last year of high school. I moved out when I was seventeen because of problems I kept running into at home. Even as I write this, I know that someone out there will completely miss the following point I am trying make: those personal issues are unrelated to my decision to enter into sex work. And for a long time, everyone around me kept telling me that it was those problems that led me into the sex industry. Today, I honestly believe that there is no correlation between the two: sex work and personal issues (Note: decision to enter sex work is also unrelated to my family relationships too).


Did you freely choose this work? Were you in any way forced or coerced into it? Were you pressured into it by economic or other pressure?

I wanted to focus on my school during my last year. At the time, I was working at least 2 different jobs either during the summer and/or during the school year. That can take a toll on someone even if they are not in school. By the time I graduated high school, I graduated on the honor roll and I also had won several awards. I also was able to focus on what I needed to focus on: getting my volunteer hours done, getting the grades I wanted to, and finishing school on time (after being in a major car accident, I was put back an entire year).

As for being pressured into it, I don’t believe I was pressured into it because I was actively seeking out work, and I found it! I went into escorting with an agency because that is what I found first. I then went into dancing and then back into escorting (on and off). There was no particular reason for going into dancing other than that I needed a job, and I didn’t really want to work for someone else or pay someone else fees for working under their name.


What, if anything, did/do you like about the work? 

I surprisingly liked a lot of things about my work, especially the ability to control my own hours and also the people that I had the opportunity to meet (I’ve met some pretty influential people in all geographic regions that I worked in). I used to be really shy too. I can tell you one thing: I am not shy anymore! I developed communication skills, negotiation skills, the ability to access certain situations on the fly, and the ability to steer situations in a more positive direction! I also liked the protection that some of the bars could provide. I was date-raped by a guy who I did not meet while working. He came into the bar, knowing that I worked there after he did what he did to me, and I was able to get him removed … FOREVER (the sad thing about this is if I went to the police, they would have blamed my choice of work for what happened to me).

What, if anything, did/do you not like about the work? 

The one thing that I didn’t like about my work was that I should have never started working in my hometown. I had people who would out me in public, or also people who would stop by the bar just to see “if it was true that I was dancing.”

On the whole, did/do you like the work, dislike it, or feel neutral about it? 

At the beginning, I liked it. As time went on in working with an agency, I began to dislike working for someone else. I was being told that bigger and better paying clients would come along, and that I could make 2000-5000 in a weekend (I equate this to a non-sex work employer telling their employees that they will get more hours or benefits if they continue to work long and hard…except for shittier pay!).

What are your feelings about your customers? 

When it comes to my experiences with my customers, I worked to develop lasting relationships with them. For the most part, it wasn’t about sex or services to them. For them, it was more about being able to spend time with someone on a more-intimate level (and intimacy can come in many forms—not just sex). There were few bad customers experiences. My madam always had a driver close by if the situation was bad (fortunately, there was never a bad situation). Management in bars would also remove difficult customers or get customers to pay who didn’t want to pay in full.

Have your feelings about the work changed with time? If you no longer work in the sex industry, did your feelings about the work change after you left it? 

When I first started escorting, I felt kind of embarrassed. When I started dancing, I felt embarrassed too. However, when I started my first retail job, I felt embarrassed. I also felt embarrassed trying to sell internet services to people in that states.

Over time, I just grew into the comfort of it more. During the course of my experiences as a sex worker, I had numerous non-sex professionals try to help me to leave the industry. I was influenced a lot by their authority and power over certain aspects of my life (like my doctor or past counselors). I left it for sometime but have met a great group of individuals who are really sex-work positive. Hearing their positive perspectives on sex work and/or sex workers has helped me on a personal level. I no longer feel as if sex work was the problem in my life. I feel empowered!

If you still work in the sex industry, do you feel free to leave it? If you no longer work in the sex industry, did you feel free to leave it? If not, what restraints did/do you have? 

I had the ability to leave the sex industry once I got back into school (but if it wasn’t for sex work I wouldn’t have probably left my hometown, and probably would have never applied to the college and university where I am at now). While still in school, I left it after realizing I was not making the money I initially made at the amount of hours I was working. I quit entirely after being able to find two part-time jobs during the summer months.

Is there anything else you want people to know about your experience of sex work? 

These are my experiences and my experiences only. My past experiences (family, relationships, etc.) are unrelated to my sex work experiences. Shitty people and even shittier management exist in all types of industries (not just sex work). Bad customers emerge in all types of business transactions (not just sex work—sometimes sex workers just have to deal with the realities for it longer and without all the same social supports available to non-sex workers). On one hand, I have lost friends because of my decision to enter sex work. On the other hand, I made many more friends! I had many great experiences and some bad experiences. It’s not like what it is in the movies. There is money to be made but not every day and all day. The thing that makes me angry the most is that there is this image that all sex workers are in need of help and live in dire circumstances. Through my experiences, it led me to new experiences, new friends, and new opportunities! The only thing that I wish I could have done better in my experiences: I wish that I had a mentor or someone that I could turn to without fear of being judged or ridiculed. My madam did sort of serve as a mentor but I felt that I needed someone outside that particular relationship. I also wish there were/are better support systems for people in the sex industry or who previously worked in that industry. Sex work and sex workers’ experience isn’t all black and white. There are many diverse experiences. People who exist outside sex work need to acknowledge all types of experiences!

Why I got into politics…

Today a press release was distributed by the Native Women’s Association of Canada (NWAC). You can read that full press release HERE.

It is very frustrating to be reading all these press releases after getting involved with politics for the first time in 2010. In 2010, I had the opportunity to meet Chad Cowie, who was the former Youth Rep for the APC and is now the co-chair for the same commission. You can check out more about the APC HERE. He was very enthusiastic about the Liberal Party of Canada and this enthusiasm made me want to get involved with the party. I have since met a wonderful group of individuals who are working very hard to bring about political change at regional, provincial, and federal levels.

When Harper announced his cuts, I clenched my fists and tried to black out this image of him in the Toronto Star:

In 2011, I voted for the first time (yes, that’s right: I voted for the first time). I was kind of bummed with the results, but very proud to say that I voted! I was even more bummed when I learned that my riding might have been affected by the robocalls. That was quite confusing. Then again, I never answer my apartment landline.

Since Harper has been in majority, a lot changes have happened. Much of these changes directly affect First Nations/Metis/Inuit people in Canada. Just to name a few changes here:

These are just a few changes, but there is so much more!

So why did I get involved in politics? What is the whole point of voting especially after the robocall scandal or after these announcements? I get asked similar questions a lot. Some Indigenous people even say that they don’t believe anything the government says or promises, and they have good reasons not too (umm helloooo residential schools, treaties, etc.)! Some even say to that I shouldn’t waste my time. I do sometimes feel like giving up, but I don’t.

I don’t give up because I believe that change can AND will happen. Some of the work that the APC is doing for Aboriginal people in politics and with the Liberal Party of Canada is GREAT! There is so much going on behind the scenes at all times. It is very fulfilling to say that there are good people both Aboriginal and non-Aboriginal involved in politics at a federal level that want good things for Canada’s Indigenous populations. When we give up, either as an individual, group, or nation, then we will have given up on future generations. We can all choose the ways in which we want to get involved.

I don’t give up because I want a better future for the next generation. If I give up, then I will have given up on the future! This is why I joined the political world and got involved with the APC. I am not saying that you should join the Liberal Party of Canada, (although I am not saying that you should NOT join the LPC *lol*). From my personal experience, I believe that any sort of involvement at any level of government or an understanding of how the Canadian government works and operates is helpful in understanding the bigger picture. Being involved has helped me to become more aware about how things happen.

However, if you feel that being involved in politics is not going help, that is completely fine too! We all have our own interests. I cannot say that THIS is the only way to get involved and to make change happen but it is one way, and it is a very fulfilling experience. If you want to form a group to raise awareness about a certain issue that is near and dear to your heart, then do it! Just don’t give up. People may question your interests or question your ability/desire to make change happen. Remember that change takes time!

Check out the APC online:

Anti-Terrorism Law and Ideology

ANTI-TERRORISM LAW: AN ANALYSIS OF THE MOTIVE REQUIREMENT 

On September 11, 2001, citizens of the western world would be changed forever. On this day, two Boeing 767s were used as “guided missiles” to take down the World Trade Centre in a second and final attempt (“Archives” http://www.theglobeandmail.com, app. 2). The first attempt to take down the American financial and economic symbols occurred in 1993, which was the attempt to bomb the buildings from the ground up (ibid. app. 2). Shortly after the 2001 incident, the United States enacted the Patriot Act and urged other countries follow suit. Canada was one among thirteen other countries that followed in America’s footsteps. Canada enacted the Anti-Terrorism Act (ATA), which directly affected several other pieces of Canadian legislation. When the ATA was first enacted, there were major concerns among many scholars about the motive requirement for terrorist activities. This motive requirement can be defined as “acting in a manner calculated to promote social and political change through violent, undemocratic means…motivated by shared ideology” (Jenkins 2009:432). Many scholars have argued that the motive requirement within the definition of terrorist activity needs to be removed to prevent racial, social, political, or religious profiling of both innocent citizens and non-citizens of Canada (Webb 2005; Roach 2005; Carter 2009). However, the government does not agree that this motive requirement needs to be removed because it is necessary to the definition of terrorist activity (“Government Response” http://www.parl.gc.ca, app. 3). This research paper will look at the social and political conditions that have motivated the development of Canada’s current anti-terrorism laws, and will look at the conflicting interests that surround the motive requirement of terrorist activity. In addition to this intention, the paper will analyze the effectiveness of this motive requirement as it is contrasted with real life examples that have gone horribly wrong.

In 2001, terrorism was nothing new, both domestically and internationally. Over the span of three decades beginning in 1973, a comprehensive review of the ATA highlighted that there has been an estimated number of “6 hijackings, 2 airplane bombings, 73 disruptive hoaxes, 9 hostage takings or kidnappings, 4 letter bombs, 170 bombs, firebombs and arsons, 59 threats, 35 attacks on individuals, 45 acts of vandalism, 14 plots and foiled attacks, and 32 instances of support for terrorist activity” (“Rights, Limits, Security” http://www.parl.gc.ca, app. 3). However, on the day of September 11, 2001 (9/11), terrorism as an urgent issue to address became central among many westernized institutions and states. The United Nations (UN) Security Council adopted several resolutions specifically relating to the 9/11 incidents. On September 12, 2001, the UN Security Council expressed their condemnation of these acts (“Resolution 1368” un.org, app. 4). Then on September 28 and November 12, 2001, the same council respectively decided “all states shall criminalize…terrorist acts” (“Resolution 1373” un.org, app. 14) and “reaffirmed its unequivocal condemnation of all acts, methods, and practices of terrorism as criminal and unjustifiable, regardless of their motivation” (“Resolution 1377” un.org, app. 14). At the time these resolutions were adopted, Canada had just finished its non-permanent member term at the end of 2000 (“Membership” un.org, app. 5). Being a permanent member of same council, the United States was the first to implement their Patriot Act, on top of their four other pieces of anti-terrorism legislation already in place (Jenkins 2009:425-426). Two of the thirteen countries that accompanied the United States in implementing such legislation were the United Kingdom (UK) and Canada. The UK passed their Anti-Terrorism, Crime and Security Act, and Canada introduced the ATA as Bill C-36, which received royal assent on December 18, 2001 (Jenkins 2009:422-425). It is evident that Canada’s anti-terrorism legislation had considerable outside political and social influences, which affected this legislation both directly and indirectly.

Before and after the ATA passed, it had not done so without much criticism. Kent Roach, Maureen Webb, and other scholars argued that this legislation was not needed as other legislative pieces like the Immigration and Refugee Protection Act (IRPA) and the Criminal Code of Canada (CCC) could deal with the terrorist activities created within the ATA (Roach 2005; Webb 2005). Webb argued that there were more than enough CCC offences that could capture “all of the wrongdoing related to the phenomenon called ‘terrorism’” (Webb 2005:72). She outlines the 47 sections within the CCC that deal with offences relating but not limited to aircraft, threats, and universal jurisdictions (Webb 2005:73). After discussing the similarities between the IRPA and the ATA, Roach proposes the question “if the ATA is so necessary and valuable, why rely on the short-cuts and displacement strategies of the IRPA?” (Roach 2005:331). Terrorism affects individuals both domestically and internationally. If the ATA’s definition of terrorist activity and reliance on the motive requirement were not enacted, this legislation would not have been able to deal with domestic terrorist acts and citizens of Canada who supposedly participate in these acts.

Aside from receiving much criticism, the ATA was also unique at an international level especially in comparison to the other approaches to anti-terrorism legislation. The United States’ progressive steps with anti-terrorism legislations are stark in comparison to the Canadian approach. Under section 145 of the ATA, the Canadian approach to anti-terrorism was to implement it and then assess it after three years from receiving Royal Assent (“Government Response” http://www.parl.gc.ca, app. 3). The United States is different in that they already had previous anti-terrorism legislation in place, one of which punished individuals by way of death (Jenkins 2009:426). The Americanized approach to anti-terrorism laws did not make Canada near perfect in their approach. Referring to international standards of non-discrimination, Roach states in his own three-year review of the ATA “that Canada lags well behind Britain in treating non-citizens suspected of terrorism in a fair manner [and] is something of an international embarrassment” (Roach 2005:332). Central to this international embarrassment is the motive requirement within the definition of terrorist activity.

At the time of the ATA’s required parliamentary review one of the main issues had been the definition of terrorism specifically relating to the issue of the motive requirement. Before the Bill C-36 received Royal Assent, Roach and his colleague proposed an amendment to include anti-discrimination and anti-profiling clauses within the ATA (Roach 2005:324). These clauses were proposed in an attempt to address not only discrimination and profiling issues relating to imprisonment, detention of person, but also include all forms of investigation and not just law enforcement (Roach 2005:325). This inclusion of all forms of investigation would affect custom officials, immigration officials, etc. During the parliamentary review, the unelected Senate Committee proposed similar recommendations to remove the motive requirement (Roach 2007:282-283). Being unelected, the government did not have to take these recommendations as seriously as the elected Commons Committee. The elected Commons Committee did not agree with this recommendation, and the Canadian government agreed with them. Both felt that in order to appropriately address the unique nature of terrorism as being different from ordinary crime, the motive requirement must be included (“Government Response” http://www.parl.gc.ca, app. 3; Roach 2007:282). Eventually, this definition of terrorist activity and motive requirement was expanded across several pieces of legislation including the Canadian Security Intelligence Services (CSIS) Act, Security of Information Act (Roach 2007:282). Unfortunately, many scholars only focus on the motive requirement within the CCC.

Finally on July 18, 2007, the Canadian government issued a response to these proposed amendments. The response outlined that with defining terrorism from other forms of crime is essential, but also acknowledged the difficulty in coming to an agreement on the current CCC definition (“Government Response” http://www.parl.gc.ca, app. 3). The definition has two components. The first component addresses transnational terrorist acts, and the second component includes the requirement for motive and intimidation of public or persons (“Government Response” http://www.parl.gc.ca, app. 3). The motive requirement specifically refers to “an act or omission, in or outside Canada, that is committed in whole or in part for a political, religious, or ideological purpose, objective or cause…with the intention of intimidating the public” (“Criminal Code of Canada” app. 12). Many have argued that this motive requirement may lead to targeting individuals for dissident political or religious views. This is where the difficulty lies in defining terrorism as a crime. Webb states, “‘terrorism’ is impossible to define precisely because to say that some crimes are terrorist acts and some not is to make a judgement about the motive behind a crime. And that judgement necessarily depends on the social, racial, religious, political, or historical perspective of the people making it” (2005:59). This implies that relying on the motive behind terrorist activity depends on the perspectives of the people making judgements about that motive. The motive requirement blurs the boundaries of the legislative powers and the enforcement that follows these powers.

Since the Bill C-36 received its Royal Assent in December 2001, the major conflicting issue is the relevancy of the motive requirement within the definition of terrorist activity, including the ATA and the CCC. The motive requirement was first enacted under the ATA as “political, religious, or ideological purpose, objective or cause…with the intention of intimidating the public” (Roach 2005:311). Many scholars, committees, and also the government itself have attempted to address this issue. It is important to note that resolution 1377 adopted by the UN’s Security Council stated that all forms of terrorism must be criminalized regardless of the motive behind the act (un.org app.4). The government has asserted that this motive requirement is what separates terrorism from ordinary crime. In its response, the government stated that this motive “operates to narrow the scope of the definition, helping to distinguish terrorist activity from other, more conventional forms of criminal activity” (“Government Response” http://www.parl.gc.ca, app. 3). Justice Rutherford’s decision in R. v. Khawaja outlines that the motive requirement must not exist independently from other requirements for the definition of terrorist activity. Rutherford states that terrorist activity “must also be committed for a political, religious or ideological purpose, and it must also intentionally cause death or serious injury, and it must also have the intent to intimidate the public or compel a person, organization or government to do something” (at para. 66 in “R. v. Khawaja 2006” app. 11). However, Justice Rutherford’s goes on to state that this motive is not relevant and sees no benefit of including the motive requirement within the CCC’s definition of terrorist activity (ibid. app. 11). The government has responded by removing this section from the ATA to expand it to other pieces of legislation, like CSIS Act in Section 2 (“Canadian Security Intelligence Service Act” app. 12) and Security of Information Act in Section 3(1)(a) (“Security of Information Act” app. 13). This expansion only creates more difficulties in defining threats to Canadian society or terrorist activities.

Scholars who argued against the motive requirement have suggested including an anti-discriminatory clause. Roach argues that the motive requirement does not make things easier, but makes an already complex situation more difficult to assess (2005:314-315). Influenced by American legislation, Roach proposed the anti-discriminatory clause to be included before the ATA received Royal Assent and that this clause also be applied “to all enforcement powers under federal legislation” (2005:325). This clause suggests that immigration and CSIS officials who are also governed by their corresponding legislation to not conduct discriminatory practices. However, the proposed amendment only applied to the CCC. Webb and Carter who argue against the motive requirement agree that this motive requirement may lead to irreparable harm on innocent citizens via discriminatory practices. Webb states that this motive requirement “gives state agents wide discretion to politically profile individuals” (2005:63). Meanwhile, Carter highlights that the motive requirements goes against the role of the law in multicultural societies. Carter argues the “principle of legality demands an inquiry focused on what the accused has done rather than on the person’s character” (2009:209). The motive requirements suggests that it is punishing individuals for who they are as a person, which includes their political, religious, or ideological beliefs, instead of punishing individuals for their acts. Punishing someone for their political, religious, or ideological beliefs may be difficult to do in a multicultural society such as Canada.

Surrounding the issue of motive requirement, there exist also issues of secrecy regarding listed entities. A listed entity is defined as a “terrorist group…that has one of its purposes or activities facilitating or carrying out any terrorist activity” (Jenkins 2009:441) Individuals may be listed as terrorist group simply for associating with individuals who are already listed entities. Webb argues that by adding sections 83.05 to 83.07 to the CCC creates a “regime of secrecy in respect of the listing of individuals and groups as ‘terrorists’” which is similar to the security certification in the IRPA (2005:93). Under the IPRA, non-citizens who are deported do not receive a notice once placed on this list, and cannot challenge being placed on the list (Roach 2005:327). This regime of secrecy under the CCC is an attempt to deal with Canadian-born citizens who participate in domestic terrorism. This type of legislative power and enforcement suggests a function in support of the dominant ideology.

The creation of the ATA and the expansion of the motive requirement relating to terrorism or threats to Canadian society to other pieces of legislation have severely complicated the issue. The inclusion of an anti-discriminatory clause would mean that institutions must not engage in racial, political, social, and religious profiling. However, many descriptions relating to charges under the CCC and other legislations like the IRPA specifically list race or ethnic origin as a physical identifier similar to weight and height. Does this mean that institutions are racial profiling? The answer appears to be no prima facie. Unfortunately, individuals have been arrested simply for looking like a suspected criminal of the same ethnic origin. For example, in June 2010, two university students were targeted after Sault Ste. Marie (SSM), Ontario police received a tip that one of the students resembled a dangerous and wanted suspect from Toronto, Ontario (“Algoma U students…” link no. 1, app. 6). Even after SSM Police adopted a bias-free policing policy that prohibits racial profiling expect when used in identification of the suspect, this incident occurred. Roach’s suggestion of inserting an anti-discriminatory clause would not be enough to prevent social, racial, political, or religious profiling. Further, the regime of secrecy surrounding terrorist lists has also contributed to these complications in defining terrorist activities and listed entities. The definition of threats to Canadian society and terrorist activity is so broad that Cindy Blackstock, who advocates for the rights of First Nations children both domestically and internationally, was listed as an enemy to the state of Canada under CSIS (“CSIS and me” app. 10). With much of the ATA amended to the expansion of other legislative pieces, like the CSIS and Security of Information Act, an analysis of various legislative pieces that contain this motive requirement is needed, as opposed to just focusing on the CCC. This motive requirement, which implies it is in support of the dominant ideology, should be removed or at least assessed to avoid harming other innocent citizens. As an Indigenous person to Canada, it is disheartening to read about individuals such as Cindy Blackstock being listed as an enemy to the state especially when she is fighting for the inherent and constitutional rights of Canada’s Indigenous children.

REFERENCE LIST
Carter, Mark. 2009. “R. v. Khawaja, The Definition of ‘Terrorist Activity,’ and the Irrelevance of Motive Doctrine: Constitutional Dimensions of a Common Law Principle.” University of British Columbia Law Review 42(1): 197-227.

Jenkins, David. 2003. “In Support of Canada’s Anti-Terrorism Act: A Comparison of Canada, British, and American Anti-Terrorism Law.” Saskatchewan Law Review 62(2): 419-454.

Roach, Kent. 2005. “The Three Year Review of Canada’s Anti-Terrorism Act: The Need for Greater Restraint and Fairness, Non-Discrimination, and Special Advocates.” University of New Brunswick Law Journal 54: 308-335.

Roach, Kent. 2007. “The Parliamentary Review of the Anti-Terrorism Act.” Criminal Law Quarterly 52 (3-4): 281-284.

Webb, Maureen. 2005. “Essential liberty or a little temporary safety? The review of the Canadian anti-terrorism act.” Criminal Law Quarterly 51(1): 53-101.

The Uncomfortable Box

Today I had a “job assessment” in the hospitality field (a field is that is generalized for hiring only “young, hot” people as some of my peers would say–I beg to differ. It takes a lot more than good looks and a nice ass to serve drinks and food. Trust me!)

This job assessment took me about 45 minutes which was something I was not prepared to do. I just thought, “Oh go in and meet the lady. Then back to school.” No, that didn’t happen.

I was kind of annoyed with this assessment because this could have been done on the internet (if they had this set up). Yet, when I returned to school and shared my experiences, much of my peers simply stated, “They probably just wanted to see you or meet you.” I interpret that as “an assessment of my physical character” rather than what I am actually capable of doing. Am I wrong?

Maybe. Maybe not.

The assessment made me feel quite uncomfortable for several reasons.

  1. It was really long
  2. The answer sheet was totally inconvenient (I would have had to been wearing my glasses which I didn’t bring)
  3. There were questions relating to words that I have never EVEN seen before (and I am in university AND worked in the legal field which has a lot of “big” words LOL)
  4. Finally, there was a box that said “you can answer these questions voluntarily.”

In the box, there were three questions. One related to gender, another to race, and finally one relating to age category. The age category had the option “less than 40” or “40+”. The box also stated something along the lines of, “Your decision to answer these questions won’t affect you being hired.” I just kept thinking, “What they hell? If these questions/answers do not affect me being hired, then why the hell would you put them in there?!” Nobody asks a questions, especially a potential employer, without trying to affect your capability of being hired.

What did I do? I answered the questions.

Now I feel like as if I should not have because what if being “American Indian/Alaskan Native” instead “Mixed race” (which was the box I was going to pick), might affect my capabilities? I may be jumping the gun a bit here.

In the end, my only ultimate thought/questions was/is, what was/is the purpose of this box? Thoughts?

PS. And if my “potential employer” or ANY potential employer sees this, I suggest that you remove that box because I am probably not the only who felt this way.

My mom…the terrorist?!

I am writing a research paper on anti-terrorism law in Canada. I decided to choose this topic because of this strange memory I had as a kid. It was this memory of tents all on our lawn and a lot of people being around the house at the same time. The only reason I knew this memory was real and not just a fragment of many recalled dreams was because of this one photograph I had seen over and over again in photo albums (the strange thing about me is that sometimes my dreams get tangled up with my realities and I have a hard time remember what was real in my past and what was simply a dream).

Those dreams are beside the point. A few weeks ago, I called my mom to ask her if she had done anything with Oka. I didn’t tell her about my memory or questioned her about the things I had remembered. She simply said yes. We had a long discussion about the information I was finding and the things that I could remember. At the time of Oka, I would have been around 3-4 years old. Some people say kids don’t remember events at that age…that is not true. I remember a lot of what happened.

My mom said that we were not allowed to use the phone and that our phone lines were tapped by the RCMP. She also said that she helped cook food for some of the families and individuals who were housed nearby. By this act alone, the motive requirement, and participation offences within the Criminal Code of Canada (CCC), my mom could have been considered as a listed entity under terrorism offences within the CCC.

There isn’t just one bad thing about being a listed entity, which means an individual, organization or corporation that conducts terrorist activities. There are a slew of things wrong with this practice. In a recent rabble.ca post, Pam Palmater discusses CSIS and First Nations’ activities. What is not discussed is how do individuals go about in getting put on such lists? Well, here is a quick outline:

  • Individuals can be put on the list. They do not have to have membership with any terrorist group or any other listed entity.
  • Individuals can be put on the list by way of association with terrorist groups and their activity or association to threats to Canadian society.
  • Individuals put on the list do not have a right to challenge this list (because they receive no notice if they are on it…they cannot challenge something they do not know about).
  • If individuals do want information on from CSIS, they do not have a right to receive detailed information. Rather they will be given a summary of the information. CSIS decides which information is be kept secret to “protect national security.”

The issue with these lists is that there is very little judicial interpretation and constitutional challenges to these lists because of the secrecy that surrounds them. What does this mean for Canadian citizens? Any one of us can be placed on this list and not even know it. An example of this list going wrong is the case of Cindy Blackstock, which is referenced in Palmater’s blog. As described by Palmater, Blackstock is a “peaceful, law-abiding citizen with a big heart.” So how did Cindy end up on this list? Who knows, she was merely advocating for First Nations children. Check out her “Have a Heart Campaign” that was launched this past February 14. Maybe all those Valentine’s Day cards sent to MPs and the PM’s office were considered a threat to “national security”?

I really like the way Palmater’s blog shares the way the information is shared with individuals who request an Access to Information and Privacy request. Please have a read over her entire blog to see the information that she received in return from the CSIS.

These supposed secret lists and the information they have on individuals all collected in the name of “protecting national security” kind of scares me. It is especially disheartened that institutions that are supposed to protect citizens are busy collecting information on its Indigenous peoples … all in the name of “protecting national security.” I wouldn’t believe that any Indigenous person, organization, or corporation deserves to be put on such a list especially when we are always fighting for our inherent and constitutional rights.

I wonder though, would my momma be on the list?

Oh and hey, Mister Government, where is our apology that was written about in the December 2010 Globe and Mail for having First Nations as listed entities, or are you all tired out from the 2008 Residential School apology?