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Stan Wesley: Leadership

Today, I attended the first day of the UCCM True Roots Youth Gathering. It was a great experience today. Tomorrow. I think know it will be the same. The youth are great. I love hearing about their educational goals and dreams.

There was also others to learn from today as well. Elders. Chiefs. Leaders. Professionals.

One thing I learned today was that “Leadership” can be learned. Yes, that’s right. Nobody is “born” a leader… Okay, maybe some people are “born-natural” leaders. But what about those people that became/become leaders who were not always born as “leader material.”

The host of the youth gathering, Stan Wesley, said today to the group that anyone can learn to be a leader.

It dawned on me that I was one of those people that learned to be a leader. I never used to be out-spoken. I was the shy, quiet girl that sat near the back of the classroom. Rarely raised my hand to answer questions in class. One teacher in Grade 11 science class even took it to the next level when I raised my hand to answer a question in class one day. I remember this day clearly because the teacher stood at the front of the classroom. Dropped his chalk. Dropped his jaw. Looked at me and said,

YOU talk!?

After that day I was even more afraid to put my hand up in class. I was in a mostly-white mostly-non-native advanced level science class. In other words, I was the only Native in this advanced level science class. I didn’t let that teacher’s reaction get to me. I continued to go to class. Mind you I continued to rarely answer questions in class. I still went. I ended up graduating from high school with the “Cultural Award” for achieving academic achievement and being involved in extra-curricular activities. Even after a car-accident where I was put back a year. Had to study harder and learn differently because of my acquired brain injury (I was in the hospital for a month, on a breathing ventilator and in a coma for 7 days, had double vision for 6 months and suffered from memory loss and today still suffer from hearing/vision loss/migraines).

The important thing here is that I didn’t let one person’s reaction get to me. I didn’t let people continue to think I had no voice. I learned the importance of education, and that is TO LEAD!

Because even though I could rarely raise my hand in class to answer questions, tomorrow I will stand in front of youth, elders, leaders, chiefs, professionals, and my peers… and lead them and guide them to inspire them and influence them on the importance of education and culture. Not just for myself, but for our entire nation!

A poem: Here I am

This is a poem I wrote on the weekend.

Poem Title: Here I am

Here I am
It is warm outside
Sitting by the window
Is the only warmth from the sun
But it is cold inside
Cold door, cold walls
Cold blankets, cold floor
The floor is filled with pebbles
That are not really there
Black, orange, grey
Reminds me of the beach
Without any water
Now, my mouth is dry
“Excuse me miss
Sorry to bother you
But can I have some water”
You don’t have to say it
I already know it
You don’t really want to be here
I don’t want to be here either
But I have no choice
They have taken my clothes
My shirt, my pants, my socks,
my underwear
And my shoes
My ankle almost broken
Swollen and sore
I can’t have any ice
But I don’t mind
Because here I am
I’ve counted the stars
Same ones over and over again
Whoever said you can’t count the stars
That lie in the sky
Didn’t see the world from a window
Six feet above their bed
I have watched the sunrise
And the sunset
From inside my own head
But I don’t mind
Because here I am
It is cold outside
It is warm inside
Back on the other side
In my own bed

Jail Conditions

I have been reading some news articles about the jail conditions during the G20 summit in June 2010.

I know that the issue with the G20 police efforts is/was that it is/was too much. More recently, TO Police Chief Bill Blair said that the police were “overwhelmed” and “not properly trained.” To read the TO Star news article, click HERE.

I also know that some of the people complained that they were arrested because they were just “there.” Wrong place. Wrong time. When I first watched it on television, I could see some peaceful protests going on and remember saying to my friends, “I wish I was there.” Not to be there but to support my friends who I knew were there that were peaceful protesters. I don’t wish that anymore.

Among those people that were arrested, they said that the jail conditions were horrible. Jail isn’t supposed to be a 4-star hotel stay. Or even a 1-star hotel stay.

From the various articles that I have read, I can remember reading that girls had to go to the bathroom in front of male officers. Male/females stripped searched. Physically abused. No food. No water. For hours at a time. No lawyer. No phone call.

Sorry, but it’s jail. Jail cells don’t have a separate room for a bathroom with a door. Jail cells don’t have down filled duvets waiting for you to be wrapped in. Oh and if you are just being held for a certain period of time (usually less than 12 hours), food doesn’t have to be provided for. Just a light snack. A glass of water. Isn’t it that a person can survive 3 hours without shelter, 3 days without water, 3 weeks without food… Just a rule of thumb.

Judging how the police reacted during the G20. That’s all they reacted on. A rule of thumb.

But this post isn’t about jail conditions during G20. Where some people were held for a little as a few hours. To maybe a few days.

This post is about the fact that incarcerated Aboriginals face more dire jail conditions than what those people would have experienced. At alarming rates.

I found this article, again searching for something completely unrelated to G20, titled Jail Conditions For Canadian Aboriginals a “Disgrace”: Ombudsman. I like how at the end of the article it says,

“If this was the case for non-aboriginal people, I’m almost certain that Canadians would react and demand that something be done,” said Beverly Jacobs.

If the people who are fighting for their “Jail Rights” during the G20, then they should fight against the conditions that not just Aboriginal but also non-Aboriginal incarcerated people face every day in jail. Like, lack of bedding. Or no doors on their bathroom stalls.

Ps. My vent for the day. And, end scene 😉

Importance of Education?!?!

Tonight, well…for the past few nights I have been thinking about what I should say or how I should say something to a group of people. The group of people are youth. The topic is the importance of education.

What is different about this group of youth is that they are Aboriginal youth. Well, you might think, “Yeah, well they are still youth. Youth are youth and they never really do anything unless they want to.” No, youth want to do things… like dream, have goals, and be happy.

For this group of youth, I don’t think I will have to motivate them because if they are at this gathering they already have the motivation to be THERE! And they have a desire to do different than what most expected from them–most being some Canadians and them being Aboriginals.

Yes, some Canadians hate Aboriginals. Racism still exist. Stereotypes still exist. Prejudice still exist. I grew up with it and I still witness it and am sometimes directly affected by someone’s racist actions and words.

Heck, even someone said I was “ignorant” for one of my posts titled “Stuff White People Like Do”. Ironically enough, it was a white person who was telling me this. Perhaps he missed the point of the overall post and only focused on one point rather than the whole message.

Anywho, I came across this opinion piece titled Why Aboriginal Education is Our Business in the Globe and Mail.

I like how this piece tells its readers that education “inspires young people.” My belief is that if a youth can dream, a youth can be inspired.

But how do you tell Aboriginal youth the importance of education, when some of them don’t even have a school to attend. Just take a look at Shannen’s Dream.

And how do you tell Aboriginal youth the importance of education, when as Urban Native Girl posted on her Facebook page,

‎”Only 8% of Aboriginal people aged 25 to 64 in Canada have a university degree compared to 23% of non-Aboriginals of the same age group.”

And how do you tell Aboriginal youth, the importance of education when Aboriginal history and culture is almost completely removed from curriculum/education plans. Aboriginal people–the first peoples of Canada.

I believe my greatest challenge next week will be to inspire an entire group of Aboriginal youth the importance of education but only because Aboriginal people including Aboriginal children do not enjoy this supposed basic Canadian right. In the year 2011.

And if I can’t inspire the entire group, I shall work towards inspiring at least one.

More to come on this journey!

Someone I am proud of…

My little sister!

I look up to her… Well, I look up to all my sisters 😉 And I am proud of all them… But, my little sister. Her wisdom is wise beyond her years.

Taken from the NAHO Testimonial Role Model Page, she says the following:

The experiences that I have with travelling, youth, meeting new people and being a National Aboriginal Role Model is unimaginable. I now tell everyone that I know, to nominate someone deserving of this recognition and opportunity. However, I would like more individuals to be aware of this program as many Aboriginal people I met, had no idea what the NARMP is and who these 12 youth are.
Being part of this program was more than what I expected, I never thought the NARMP could have given me so much and allowed me to grow as an individual in addition to volunteering and helping out at various events. The NARMP definitely aided in the development of me becoming a better person and I am very grateful for that.

Choosing the 12 new NARMP role models was a great experience because I seen how many youth who are deserving of this opportunity and what NAHO deals with on a regular basis keeping this program in tact and successful. I enjoyed working with other 2009-10 role models in choosing these individuals because I do not see them regularly and probably will have few opportunities to in years to come.

Alicia Sayers, 2009-10 National Aboriginal Role Model

Globalization: The Further Oppression of Aboriginal Women

Globalization: The Further Oppression of Aboriginal Women in Canada

Recently a Globe and Mail article dated February 25, 2011 featuring Michael Moore, known for his Academy-award winning documentaries (Michael Moore’s Blog), talks about a Brazilian-owned Mining company in Canada that is known as the “second largest mining company in the world” (Galloway). This is globalization in Canada: large export companies coming in and creating employment for its citizens. In the same article, the mining company’s most recent decision is highlighted. This decision is to remove itself from its mining operations in the small northern community of Thompson, Manitoba, which will reportedly cause its citizens to lose five hundred jobs (Galloway). Upon the company’s exit, Thompson’s citizens will be left without employment and the company will be left with an acquired $17.3 billion (Galloway). Some say globalization is for the betterment of Canada, but what those people fail to see is the exploitation of small towns. Small towns like Thompson, Manitoba are exploited with the promise of opportunity, but when the company leaves the community, the towns are right back where they started: with little to no economic opportunity. What the headlines do not reveal are the town’s hidden citizens, wherein Thompson, Manitoba 36.4% of the population is Aboriginal (Indian and Northern Affairs). Headlines like this, which are concerned with the ways in which globalization helps small towns, take priority over the headlines that are concerned with how globalization is adversely affecting other groups who already lack opportunity within Canada, like Aboriginal women. When people and headlines are more concerned with the general population, one must begin to ask, has globalization benefited women, specifically Aboriginal women?

This essay will argue that Aboriginal women in Canada have not benefited from globalization because of a corporate culture that creates a patriarchy that is adverse to Aboriginal culture, which further oppresses Aboriginal women in Canada. This essay will first demonstrate that globalization oppresses Aboriginal women through its patriarchal corporate culture, which is counter to the values and beliefs of Aboriginal culture. Second, the essay will put forth the idea that Aboriginal women are oppressed because their issues are inadequately addressed in the face of globalization. Finally, this essay will argue that Aboriginal women are oppressed because globalization further limits the few opportunities available to them. Two counter arguments will also be addressed: The argument made by some critics which suggests that globalization does not oppress all Aboriginal women, some of whom are already part of Aboriginal communities that are patriarchal in form; and the argument that globalization helps Aboriginal women because some international organizations use globalization to raise awareness concerning Aboriginal women’s issues. As Aboriginal people fight for their rights and recognition within Canadian society, they must be careful not to further oppress an important group of people key to their own existence: Aboriginal women.

Globalization is an ambiguous term with multiple meanings. When applying ambiguous terms to a specific group of people, caution should be taken because these terms and their concepts may seem to only benefit part of the group, rather than the whole group. A definition of what globalization is and how it pertains to Aboriginal people should be established. In Globalization and Self-Government: Impacts and Implications for First Nations in Canada, Gabrielle A. Slowey points out that globalization is a “common term…with a variety of meanings [and] for some, it is a dangerous euphemism” (266). Globalization as it is relevant to Aboriginal peoples can be defined as the corporate control over resources for profit. Furthermore, Slowely describes globalization as “corporations [assuming] a more dominate role in all spheres of life” (265). This corporate dominated role suggests that globalization is purely profit driven, and in the corporate world, people are unconcerned with the under-privileged, like Aboriginal women. Another question relating to globalization and Aboriginal peoples is what is it exactly that corporations seek to control? As it pertains to Aboriginal peoples, corporations seek to control natural resources. In Globalization as Racialized, Sexualized Violence, Rauna Kuokkanen describes globalization as “a form of oppression that is linked to patriarchy” (218) and “this patriarchal control [is] over those defined as subordinate, whether women, indigenous peoples or the environment (‘natural resources’)” (222). Koukkanen shows that corporations seek to control those who are considered subordinate, which includes women, Aboriginal people, and their natural resources. Aboriginal women are then a unique group to the world of globalization because they are connected to issues relating to women, to race, and to natural resources. Therefore, this essay defines globalization as a purely profit driven, corporate dominating concept that seeks to control the natural resources of Aboriginal people in a top-down fashion.

Globalization’s corporate culture seeks to control subordinate subjects in the corporate-driven world. In the corporate world, Canadian women in general are already underrepresented and rarely reach top-management positions (Catalyst). This may suggest a patriarchal structure, and it is this patriarchy that has oppressed Aboriginal women in the past and will continue to oppress them in the future. In Sisters in Spirit, Anita Olsen Harper states that “many pre-contact Aboriginal societies were both matriarchal and matrilineal [which] ensured women’s authority and legitimate place” (175). Globalization may then further oppress Aboriginal women because it is this corporate dominating world associated with globalization that may cause Aboriginal women to further lose their place in society. If globalization may further oppress Aboriginal women, it does so in a historical context of this type of oppression. The oppression of Aboriginal women occurred when Europeans first came to Canada. In Trauma to Resilience: Notes on Decolonization, Cynthia C. Wesley-Esquimaux highlights that “Native women came under the gaze of missionaries, men who could not see women as equals…Native women were removed from their traditional roles and responsibilities and pushed to the margins of their own society” (16). This shows that Aboriginal women’s oppression began well before globalization, and that if globalization’s corporate dominating world and its suggestive patriarchy were to continue into the future, so will the oppression of Aboriginal women.

One might argue that globalization would not oppress all Aboriginal women because some of their own communities are patriarchal in form. To compare globalization’s patriarchy and an Aboriginal society’s patriarchy is a false analogy. This is because even if some Aboriginal societies are patriarchal in form, Aboriginal women still have a place in society. Harper further states that “other First Nation societies, even if they were patriarchal in structure, were similar to the Iroquoian in their recognition and placing women in high standing” (175). Aboriginal women’s status, since the Europeans colonization, has been oppressed because Europeans did not see them as equals. Globalization is profit-driven, not equality-driven. Furthermore, this comparison is a false analogy because an Aboriginal women’s position was central to Aboriginal people’s existence, even in a patriarchal structure. As Harper further states:


[These societies] considered their women essential and valued economic partners….women took on domestic roles…as well as significant roles in essential livelihood activities….women were personally autonomous, appreciated, and treated as valued members in all aspects of community life. (175-176)

This demonstrates that Aboriginal women have a rightful and equal place essential to Aboriginal people’s existence in their society, whether patriarchal or not. Globalization will further oppress Aboriginal women because corporations are unconcerned with giving status to the subordinates they seek to control or with treating their subordinates as equal and essential to the corporation’s existence.

Aboriginal women are a unique group to globalization. They are unique because they are connected to all three groups: women, Aboriginal people, and natural resources (land). When corporations seek to control Aboriginal people’s natural resources, the issues Aboriginal people are concerned with no longer include gender specific issues, but rather they are concerned with land (natural resources) issues. Aboriginal women are then oppressed because Aboriginal women’s issues are no longer given the attention they deserve. Andrea Smith in Native American Feminism, Sovereignty and Social Change insists that “Native struggles for land and survival continue to take precedence over these other issues” (118) and that “gender justice is often articulated as being a separate issue from issues of survival” (121). Smith shows that the struggle for land (natural resources) and survival is prioritized above Aboriginal women’s issues and that the latter are seen as separate issues all together. If globalization is profit driven and seeks to control the natural resources of Aboriginal people, and if Aboriginal people prioritize their struggle for land (natural resources) over Aboriginal women’s issues, these gender-specific issues may never be recognized and realized, thereby further oppressing Aboriginal women.

Having said this, one might argue that globalization does not oppress Aboriginal women because international organizations are using globalization to bring awareness to Aboriginal women’s issues. Even though other organizations like Amnesty International are helping free Aboriginal women from their struggles, any real change has yet to happen. Amnesty International has been dedicated to helping Aboriginal women and their issues, and its Stolen Sisters campaign speaks out about gender violence against Aboriginal women (Amnesty International 2). It must be highlighted that this is only a recent campaign, and a report subsequent to the campaign highlights the fact that even though inquiries have been conducted, and recommendations put forth, most of these recommendations have yet to be implemented. Work into the Stolen Sisters campaign began in October 2004 (Amnesty International 1), and Amnesty International’s most recent report, dated September 2009, further states that provincial and federal inquiries have “put forth a body of recommendations most of which have yet to be implemented” (Amnesty International 25). The same issues, the Aboriginal peoples and their natural resources, that continue to take priority over Aboriginal women’s issues are the same ones central to globalization, further excluding and oppressing Aboriginal women from the global economy. Therefore, even though other organizations are raising awareness about Aboriginal women’s issues to help relieve them from oppression, this work is still recent, and some of its recommendations have yet to be implemented. It could take years for any real changes to happen, and globalization may make these changes even more difficult to attain.

Globalization further oppresses Aboriginal women because it makes the few opportunities that are available to them even more difficult to obtain. In Sisters in Spirit, Harper highlights that Aboriginal women face “high-unemployment rates and lack of economic opportunity,” in particular on their First Nation (180). The jobs created for Aboriginals living on their First Nation continue to exclude Aboriginal women when corporations introduce male-dominated natural resource industries. Furthermore, globalization and its corporate dominating world are not concerned with Aboriginal women and their opportunities. Slowey highlights that “globalization has provided the government with incentives to make Canada more competitive within the global economy” (270). This shows that globalization is not concerned with Aboriginal women and their opportunities, but rather with where Canada stands in the global economy. This increased competition may lead to the migration of people into Canada and thus to the further displacement Aboriginal women, especially those living off their First Nation and in Canadian cities. Fariyal Ross-Sheriff in Globalization as a Women’s Issue Revisited highlights that “global changes are resulting in greater mobility…and global migration” (133). It must be noted that migration of individuals to Canada is not opposed of or should be rejected. However, globalization and heightened migration into Canada may then lead to Aboriginal women’s competitive advantage to be diminished as people with more skills, education, and experience fight for the same opportunities that Aboriginal women fight for. With increased migration and a focus on making Canada more competitive in the global economy, Aboriginal women are oppressed when their struggles to acquire the few opportunities available to them are more difficult to attain in the face of globalization.

Globalization is, above all else, profit-drive. This essay defined globalization as corporations seeking to control the natural resources of Aboriginal people in a top-down fashion. This essay asked the question: has globalization benefited women, specifically Aboriginal women? The answer is that Aboriginal women in Canada have not benefited from globalization because it is this corporate culture that creates a patriarchal society and control over Aboriginal people and their resources. It is this type of control that is adverse to Aboriginal culture and that further oppresses Aboriginal women. Furthermore, Aboriginal women’s oppression began well before globalization and if globalization’s tendency to dominate and exercise patriarchal control over subordinate subjects were to continue into the future, so will the oppression of Aboriginal women. The counter-argument that some Aboriginal societies are patriarchal in form fails to acknowledge the place that Aboriginal women continue to hold in these societies. Even if some Aboriginal societies are patriarchal, these societies still recognize Aboriginal women and placed women in high standing. As corporations seek to control Aboriginal peoples and their resources, the issues Aboriginal women struggle with may never be fully recognized in the face of globalization. Other organizations are helping to bring attention to Aboriginal women’s issues, but this work is only recent and some of it has yet to be implemented. Globalization focuses on making Canada more competitive in the global economy, and in doing so, it makes the few opportunities available to Aboriginal women more difficult to reach as people with more skills, education, and experience seek out global opportunity in Canada. Therefore, as Aboriginal people fight for their rights and recognition as a group within Canadian society, they must be careful not to further oppress an important group of people key to their existence: Aboriginal women.

If Canada wants to remain competitive in a globalized Canadian economy, they must begin to recognize the implications of globalization on Aboriginal people and Aboriginal women specifically. Aboriginal people must also be aware of these implications and their effects on Aboriginal women, a group that is central to their existence. Aboriginal people should be careful not to fight just for land rights or Aboriginal people’s rights, but also to fight for Aboriginal women’s rights. Amnesty International’s work on Aboriginal women’s issues and gender violence is a start, but the work should not stop there. Aboriginal people should be weary about globalization. They should be weary about allowing corporations to access their natural resources merely for profit. In the past, prior to the onset of globalization, Aboriginal people’s land was taken away from them and their women were controlled in a patriarchal fashion. With globalization and corporate greed, Aboriginal people may no longer have a place to call home. That is, as more people come to Canada for opportunity and a new place to call home, the question we must ask is: where will Aboriginal peoples go? The real and long-term implications of globalization needs to be addressed before allowing corporations, like the one mentioned in The Globe and Mail article, on Aboriginal land. Furthermore, a corporation entering Aboriginal land to access its resources needs to be transparent about what it plans to do with the land and it needs to be transparent with the land’s rightful owners: the Aboriginal people. Aboriginal people need to realize that they cannot leave the most important group of people–Aboriginal women–out of their struggle for existence, because if it were not for Aboriginal women, Aboriginal people would not exist.

National Aboriginal Day

Well today is National Aboriginal Day! Happy day to all my Aboriginal/First Nations/Metis/Inuit readers….

Something I learned today about National Aboriginal Day:

  • It was proclaimed in 1996.
  • It is part of an 11-day Celebration to “Celebrate Canada” [Some of the other days are Saint-Jean-Baptiste Day (June 24), Canadian Multiculturalism Day (June 27) and concludes with Canada Day (July 1)]

The above points are courtesy INAC opps I mean “Aboriginal Affairs and Northern Development Canada”

Something I learned recently, courtesy Facebook, is that June is National Aboriginal History month!

Just writing this post to share some things I found out about this lovely day.

Nothing personal 😉

PS. I am proud to be Aboriginal on this lovely day and every other day!

Cute Girl at the Salon

Today I received two tweets mentioning me on twitter. They both said:

So and so and @naomisayers00 got mentions today in @themetrolondon

Or something close to that…

So, I went to the metronews.ca/london website to see what I tweeted that was printed in London ON newspaper. What was tweeted? My tweet that read:

Getting nails did. Same salon. Same cute girl. Lovely Sunday. #ldnont

Who is the girl that did my nails? Well, her English name is “Mimi.” This is the second time she has done my nails. I liked it the way it was done the first time, so I went back for a second time.

This time, I wanted had a bit more conversation with her. I found out she works 7 days a week. Yes, that’s 7 days. No weekend off. Although she would like to go to Niagara Falls, but as she said… “She has to work.”

She works full-time shifts (That means open to close, every single day of the week). She says she likes work but I am not sure if she is just told to say that…because when I was her age (She is much younger than me. That’s 4 years younger), I know that I wasn’t working 7 days a week…

She also told me she had family in Vietnam. She misses them and loves them. Maybe someone might say that I shouldn’t be writing about this but I wanted to share this–because well, it really bothers me when I see individuals like her who come to Canada, work in the service industry, and get treated horribly by their customers. Some people need to realize that some people have no choice for their job and how many hours they work. They. Have. To. Do. It.

After learning about her story, it made me wonder if she was here because she wanted to be or …. was that a different story all together? Hmmmm…

PS. Readers, next time you decide to *bitch* out someone for the services they provide…try to consider their life for one second before you worry about how *bad* your nails were did or how *awful* your car wash was… Really.

London’s East Side

After searching for another article completely unrelated to drugs/drug-use, I came across this article in the Globe and Mail search results titled “On London’s east side, OxyContin is King”

One of the reasons brought up as to what caused this drug to be “king” is that well… it is being over-prescribed.

“Through over-prescribing, the public-health system is actively, if inadvertently, creating thousands upon thousands of drug addicts. And it’s flooding the streets with the pills to feed those addictions.”

Simple enough answer. Blame the public-health system.

There are some suggestions that Deb Matthews brought up in the article to tackle this drug issue. Some of the things she suggested are:

Education:

  • Enlighten health professionals on what they’re dealing with
  • set clear guidelines for when and how much to prescribe and dispense
  • then trust them to make the right decisions.(Don’t we already “trust” the healthcare professionals to make the “right” decisions presently?!)

Then it was brought up that the problem could be the persistence of the addicts themselves. But that’s what everyone does already–blame the addict.

Then further in the article it was mentioned that the “integrated addiction strategy seems to have strong support from the municipal government.” The strategy offers everything from shelter, to counselling, to harm reduction. Oh but wait, there is still lack of support from the federal and provincial levels. Then, spots in rehab-clinics are rare because of certain rules that one must abide by before even entering (even if it is just for one night). And the lack of support for mental health services or affordable housing.

This article is good in a sense that it talked about everything that is wrong except for one thing–it is much easier to get drugs than it is to get any of the other services that an addict wants to use to get clean.

Have to be clean for 72 hours before sleeping in an overnight bed? That’s 3 days. 3 days in Candy Land is a pretty long time.

Have to have no criminal record or be using illegal drugs to use out-patient mental health services at Old Vic hospital? And, that’s only if you make it past the screening process (See no criminal record and no use of illegal drugs–but sometimes isn’t that the cause of mental health issues–illegal drug use?). Oh can’t forget, most importantly, that’s only if you can make it to your initial appointment.

And to have issues like the girl mentioned in the article — prostituting in East London. Taking abuse from Johns. Being angry with her doctor. Sucked back in through her circle of friends. For some drug use helps to make certain pain or emotions disappear. For others, it is the only thing they know. For some, they don’t want to know any better.

So really, what is the problem with “London’s East Side” … even when the London Police Services (with its fancy-schmatsy new building) is right at the heart of London’s East Side.

Maybe it is an array of all those problems listed in the article, and maybe its few confusing solutions (Education? For what–to trust our health-care professionals to make the correct decisions–something that we are supposed to trust them to do already). Or maybe, some people just fail to realize that yup, drugs are easy to get and a drug addict can and will get drugs where ever and when ever they can. Sure some will do whatever it takes to get the drugs. But what about the fact that some of the solutions already put in place, are that much more difficult to attain or acquire access too (Like those 24 hour beds, wherein someone has to be 72-hours clean).

In reality, for some, the door and desire to get clean sometimes is a small one and can close very quickly. In my opinion, the problem exists not only with lack of services (ie-mental health) but the abundance of tape that one must cut through just to even get help… even if it is only for 24-hours.

Happy Father’s Day

Today’s post is dedicated to my dad and all the other dads out there or father-type figures. I was able to see my dad on Friday after my sister’s graduation here in London ON. I was very thankful (even though it wasn’t right exactly on Father’s day–today) because I know that not everyone has a dad or father-type figure in their life.

I am very thankful for my dad and the fact that he was there for me and my family.

Some of my friend’s growing up used to say to me, “Yo, Naomi… Do you bring boyfriends home? Because if I were to meet your dad, I’d be scared.” Or they tell me, “Man your dad doesn’t say much…”

No he didn’t say much and no I didn’t bring boyfriends home. I didn’t bring boyfriends home because I never had a boyfriend until I was 17 years old. I wasn’t living at home then either.

My dad isn’t/wasn’t scary. He just didn’t say much. But this isn’t why I love him. I love him because even though he didn’t say much, when he did say something… it was said at the right time and for the right reasons.

I remember I was in the hospital after a suicide attempt. I wasn’t allowed to wear my own clothes. I felt like I was in jail. I had a 24 hour monitor making sure I didn’t run away or try to hurt myself further. I really didn’t like that situation at all. And, I am sure that my dad (and the rest of my family) didn’t like to see me in this situation. I knew I shouldn’t be in there either. The women down the hall from me apparently heard snakes underneath her bed. I could hear people crying out in the middle of the night. I just knew I didn’t have to be there. Except I was. And all because I wanted to die, and tried to kill myself.

My dad came to visit me when he could. I was lucky because the other patients didn’t have anyone come and visit them at all.

He brought me lined paper to write on and a pen to write with. I was allowed to have this much in my room and only use it during the day. One day, he came to visit me. Being himself, he didn’t say much that day. However, I remember this day clearly because he sat there on my bed and he opened the book, took the pen and wrote the words on the last paper:

Everything is going to be alright

I kept that piece of paper for a long time. I would open it up and read those words when ever I felt like crap or if things weren’t really going well and I needed a little boost. I remember those words to this day because those words coming from my own dad, really do help.

I don’t know if he remembers writing those words to me on that day as much as I remember today. But sitting here today, those words have helped me to realize that some days are harder than others and some days are easier than others… but in the end, and like my dad wrote that day, everything is going to be alright.

Like I said earlier, my dad doesn’t say much but when he does… it’s the right words at the right time even if it is only written word.

My dad is awesome like that 😉

PS. Kudos to single parents who are both the father and the mother. Happy Father’s Day to all the dads out there and father-type figures!